Disney came out with a movie called Frozen and it was a smashing hit. People loved the story and it tells about a love between two sisters. Elsa breaking her bond with her sister to protect her, Anna sacrificing her life to save her sister.
Seeing that kind of love, I feel strings pulling at my heart. I wish my relationship with my sisters were like Elsa and Anna.
I have three siblings, an older sister, a younger brother and a younger sister. My older sister and I are 11 months apart. My mom used to dress us like twins when we were younger. I do not know how she feels about it but I don't mind copying my sister. After all, I look up to her, knowing she's my friend for life, my playmate. I do remember I am my sister's protector. An older kid at school would bully my sister and I would be the one standing up to protect her.
But those seem to be memories from afar. Growing up, we took on responsibilities of becoming older siblings. My younger brother came four years after me, and my youngest sister came five years years after my brother. I don't mind. I love taking care of them and being their "crazy/weird" di-chi (second older sister).
I remember the nights when my sister and I would use to talk before going to bed. Her bed used to be just across mine. The lights would be out and we would just talk and tell stories. I loved hearing about her high school days and when she talk about her friends. But after a while, it stopped. I don't remember why but it seem that as we were growing up, we were growing apart. I missed those days. We seem to be so different, that our personalities would clash with each other.
To be honest, I envy people who have a very close & tight-knit relationship with their siblings. Like their sister or brother is their best friend. I rarely talk to my siblings. And living so far away, sometimes I feel like I'm a pesky sister who keeps on messaging them on Facebook. I still yearn to be connected with them, I wonder what is happening in their lives and I wanted them to tell me stories and share their lives with me. I don't want us to be strangers to each other.
Mom told me years ago, she doesn't want us siblings to be fighting with each other. That after they're gone, we only have each other. It's true with the story from Frozen. They only have each other. And Anna risked her life to save her sister. That is true love. A lesson we all should practice.
Maybe now we live different lives. I still wish my relationship with my siblings will get better. That somehow we would get closer with one another. But I'd like to think I would lay down my life for them because I love them. They are after all, my siblings.
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